Being a doctor treating my patients make me aware of my sickness, motivated me to look for cure. Living with sickness and not being aware of sickness cause real damage beyond repair but others can learn from me as I learned from them.
I can not change the past but learn from past.
Now I know my sickness helped me to have empathy for everyone whether they are unaware of their sickness, if trying to heal themselves or have no sickness, and I keep loving, learning and thankful to everyone.